Ugggggggggh.

God, I don't understand why you put certain people in my path, I understand while they are still here, but as soon as they leave, I want to shoot my foot off.
I'm so used to people leaving me I've put up this front so i don't let emotions seep through, I let someone past the wall i've built and now I feel broken hearted and lost.
I love you?
We're all those words a lie?
I feel like they have been once they say "We can still be friends though." I'd rather DIE then hear those words.
I wish God would just take me out of my misery and take me home with him.
God is the only man I can trust because everytime I trust someone else I get my emotions thrown back in my face.
I thought you were different, you said you were, you said you didn't want to hurt me...
But you did.

Prayer.

Today I'm still sick, but with God's grace, I'm getting better, that and a lot of prayer from my friends.
But.... today I got sad news that my mom's friends son Andrew has just went from being able to breathe on his own, to being on life support in under 2 hours.
Please pray for Andrew, he's only 13 and he got hurt from falling down the stairs, his kidneys and liver failed. Keep him in your prayers for the families heart to be mended and that you would either bring him home to Jesus or heal him.
Thanks.

Today.

Today was an eventful day.
I got to see my friend Neil and he pretty much made my day.
He's an amazing guy and God has blessed me with his friendship.

Prayer.

Today I'm sick :(
My family is going through a lot.
pray for us.