God give me strength

All my life I've known I've wanted to be a mom, & sometimes I don't wanna wait tell I get married, I mean people do it all the time, raise a kid on there own, why couldn't I do it, well i thought about it, & well for one I don't have a job, secondly I don't have my own place, & thirdly I don't wanna bring up a kid in a single parent relationship, not that there is anything wrong with single parent home, I just want my future kids to have a mommy & a daddy like I never did.

Also I pray for God to give me strength to wait for my future husband, so I decided to write down everything I want in him:

*Must love God with all of his heart. (Must have.)
*Must be sympathetic
*Is passionate about everything he does.
*Wants to be a missionary. (This one is important!)
*Has to be nice to my family, & his own.
*Know's how to work with my family.( My family pretty much determines whether a guy i worth my time or not.)
*Love's kids & wants to have a bunch of them. (5-7)
*Play's the guitar, & sings. (I'm a sucker for a musician.)
*Is taller then me.
*Must be at least a year older then me. (I have met one guy who would be worth changing this one.)
*I have to be attracted to him, but if he's my future husband why wouldn't I be.
*Must be able to tell me everything, because I don't like secrets.
*When I cry he'll hold me & tell me everything is okay. (& I cry a lot)
*Is not ashamed of me.
*Must have tattoo's & piercings. (mandatory)
*Must have a good style.
*Love's to travel, & visit far away lands.
*Doesn't mind leaving everything behind to do God's will.
*Must be loving, thoughtful, charitable, caring, protective, sensative, strong, proud, stable,fun loving, crazy (In a good way), Not afraid to be himself .
*Must love me for me, I'm not changing myself to make any guy happy.
*Must wanna spend the rest of his life with crazy old me.

I have more but those little things which is for me to know & for you not to find out :)

This blog I want to dedicate to anyone who has ever been hurt by family, friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, or anyone else.
I wanna say, it'll be okay.

I just realized, that its not the end of the world, their are plenty more fishies in the sea for me :)& there is for you too.

You'll find your end of the rainbow someday, so just stick in there, I promise it'll be worth it.I'm still searching for the end of my rainbow, but I'm not giving up, God put perserverence in me.

If you need a shoulder to cry on turn to God because he's always there.He loves you with all of his heart & he just wants you to be apart of his life, God knows none of us is perfect & thats why he died for us. He died so we wouldn't have to suffer. I'm by no means perfect, I've had my regrets, but I know that God loves me & that if I ask him he'll whipe all my sins away, as soon as I say "Forgive me God" & he does.

"My child, be attentive to my words; incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them escape from your sight; keep them within your heart. For they are life to those who find them, and healing to all their flesh." Proverbs 4:20-22

This verse has been halping me alot, it actually helped me to get back into my bible after a really bad break up, where iI thought that I would rather die then be without him, but God showed me who needed me, I learned just recently the reason why I'm here, to help the helpless, the fatherless, the homeless, the heartbroken, I just wanna be a light to people in the darkness,I want to love on the people that have never been loved, I wanna adopt all of the kids that have never had parents. I just wanna do everything & anything to help anyone who needs help.You may think I sound silly, & I thought I did too, but idk God gave me such an enormous love for everything & everyone that I just wanna share it with everyone, starting right here with my little old myspace blog, I wanna say no matter who you are, what you've done, or things you have said, I love you.

This is my favorite Bible verse right now:

There is no fear in love; but perfect love castethout fear; because fear hath torment." 1 John 4:18

I just wanted to say God bless, & have a wonderful day.