God give me strength

All my life I've known I've wanted to be a mom, & sometimes I don't wanna wait tell I get married, I mean people do it all the time, raise a kid on there own, why couldn't I do it, well i thought about it, & well for one I don't have a job, secondly I don't have my own place, & thirdly I don't wanna bring up a kid in a single parent relationship, not that there is anything wrong with single parent home, I just want my future kids to have a mommy & a daddy like I never did.

Also I pray for God to give me strength to wait for my future husband, so I decided to write down everything I want in him:

*Must love God with all of his heart. (Must have.)
*Must be sympathetic
*Is passionate about everything he does.
*Wants to be a missionary. (This one is important!)
*Has to be nice to my family, & his own.
*Know's how to work with my family.( My family pretty much determines whether a guy i worth my time or not.)
*Love's kids & wants to have a bunch of them. (5-7)
*Play's the guitar, & sings. (I'm a sucker for a musician.)
*Is taller then me.
*Must be at least a year older then me. (I have met one guy who would be worth changing this one.)
*I have to be attracted to him, but if he's my future husband why wouldn't I be.
*Must be able to tell me everything, because I don't like secrets.
*When I cry he'll hold me & tell me everything is okay. (& I cry a lot)
*Is not ashamed of me.
*Must have tattoo's & piercings. (mandatory)
*Must have a good style.
*Love's to travel, & visit far away lands.
*Doesn't mind leaving everything behind to do God's will.
*Must be loving, thoughtful, charitable, caring, protective, sensative, strong, proud, stable,fun loving, crazy (In a good way), Not afraid to be himself .
*Must love me for me, I'm not changing myself to make any guy happy.
*Must wanna spend the rest of his life with crazy old me.

I have more but those little things which is for me to know & for you not to find out :)

This blog I want to dedicate to anyone who has ever been hurt by family, friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, or anyone else.
I wanna say, it'll be okay.

I just realized, that its not the end of the world, their are plenty more fishies in the sea for me :)& there is for you too.

You'll find your end of the rainbow someday, so just stick in there, I promise it'll be worth it.I'm still searching for the end of my rainbow, but I'm not giving up, God put perserverence in me.

If you need a shoulder to cry on turn to God because he's always there.He loves you with all of his heart & he just wants you to be apart of his life, God knows none of us is perfect & thats why he died for us. He died so we wouldn't have to suffer. I'm by no means perfect, I've had my regrets, but I know that God loves me & that if I ask him he'll whipe all my sins away, as soon as I say "Forgive me God" & he does.

"My child, be attentive to my words; incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them escape from your sight; keep them within your heart. For they are life to those who find them, and healing to all their flesh." Proverbs 4:20-22

This verse has been halping me alot, it actually helped me to get back into my bible after a really bad break up, where iI thought that I would rather die then be without him, but God showed me who needed me, I learned just recently the reason why I'm here, to help the helpless, the fatherless, the homeless, the heartbroken, I just wanna be a light to people in the darkness,I want to love on the people that have never been loved, I wanna adopt all of the kids that have never had parents. I just wanna do everything & anything to help anyone who needs help.You may think I sound silly, & I thought I did too, but idk God gave me such an enormous love for everything & everyone that I just wanna share it with everyone, starting right here with my little old myspace blog, I wanna say no matter who you are, what you've done, or things you have said, I love you.

This is my favorite Bible verse right now:

There is no fear in love; but perfect love castethout fear; because fear hath torment." 1 John 4:18

I just wanted to say God bless, & have a wonderful day.

Camp

Camp has been an exciting experience, I love it and I've met a lot of new people and I love all of them.....welll kinda hayley is kinda annoying ;) jk jk. I love her.
Brittany is a lameo, but its okay :D
Peeeace.

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I can't stand this feeling i feel.
My life is falling apart at the seems.
And i feel like i can't tell anyone about it.
I want to explode.
I don't want to be here anymore.
I feel sad and depressed all the time.
Nothing is going right for me right now.
I don't know what to do....

This.

This weekend God blessed me with seeing snow fall for the first time ever.
I was so at awe at all the crazy things that God does like change the weather and make it snow. Waking up to snow covering everything was one of the more amazing experiences.
I love the snow. I just don't like getting wet.